December 2010
30 posts
history repeats itself.
and i always run away from all the wrong people.
push away all the ones i want need want to be there the most.
guess i’m an asshole after all.
“All moments, past, present and future, always have existed, always will exist.”
– Kurt Vonnegut - Slaughterhouse Five (via jesthenoir)
brostyle asked: why r u so pretty?
To Let Go:
does not mean to stop caring, it means i can’t do it for someone else.
is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that i can’t control another.
is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
is not to try to change or blame another, it’s to make the most of myself.
is...
RiloKiley SciencevsRomance
also,
i pretend i don’t know why i do mean things to people.
but i do, completely do.
i can’t stop the words, the secrets sometimes. and once they are out i have a sudden and compulsive need to remove, to distance myself and destroy everything that has been created, rebuilding the old walls and creating new ones.
so now you know.
i can honestly and without irony say: it’s not...
the state of my room is usually pretty on par with the state of my life.
example, a complete disaster area at the moment.
luckily the snow has made it impossible for me to leave my house, so it seems there’s nothing better to do than drink a bottle of wine get drunk and clean.
(something about being in poughkeepsie always makes me wish i was a drug addict, or at least that someone i...
“Girls get a lot of mixed messages—they are told, ‘Girl Power!’ and what does...”
– Tina Fey (via sarahgraham7)
i have always loved accepted embraced demanded appreciated change.
i’ve never found myself to be sentimental, or the type that thrived and depended on tradition.
so why do i feel so unsettled? like everything is slipping through my grasp? things have been so different this year, and i think my discomfort stems from how i’ve been watching everyone try so hard to hold on to the...
“Libraries will get you through times of no money better than money will get you...”
– Anne Herbert (via bookobsessed)
Three pieces of advice I'm about to give other...
coketalk:
1. You can’t be crippled by an emotion unless you’re the one doing it to yourself.
2. Just because your issues have a name it doesn’t mean you’re aware of them.
3. Assholes are gonna violate the social contract. You can come to expect it. You can even be prepared for it, but don’t ever get used to it.
they leave because we need them.
they come back because we forget them.
i’m always stuck between having to remember and wanting to erase it all, and i don’t think it’s any easier for me to stop hurting people than it is for you.
i don’t want to go back to the way things were, the place things were, but i’m really not given much of a choice, am i?
anne...
“If mum had lied to me about God, had she also lied to me about Santa? Yes, of...”
– Ricky Gervais, Why I’m An Atheist (via fortuneandglory)
there's something in the air
we’re all admitting how we feel.
and i can wait icanwait.
but i can also forget.
i’ve been thinking a lot lately about the power people want to have over each other.
but i don’t think it’s going to help.
you can figure people out and psycho-analyze them until you’re both blue in the face, but nobody will ever change until they’re ready.
most of the time, when we admit defeat, or concede we were wrong, it’s only to pacify someone else...
“Laugh at the night,
at the day, at the moon,
laugh at the twisted
streets of...”
– Pablo Neruda, Your Laughter (via fuckyeahneruda)
please
fast forward to next week.
or go back a month.
“The trouble was, I had been inadequate all along, I simply hadn’t thought about...”
– Sylvia Plath (The Bell Jar)
“If someone breaks your heart, just punch them in the face. Oh sure, it seems...”
– Chuck Klosterman
exactly (via sincesheleft)
i need a good book to read.
recommendations?
everything'll be alright: things i have to tell... →
katrinamarjorie:
after a terrible day, like today, i often google inspirational quotes that are usually cliche. but they make me feel better. so i’m going to put them all in one place now. dear tumblr, welcome to my self-soothing obsession.
“you may write me down in history/with your bitter, twisted lies, you may…
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED RIGHT NOW.
add this onto the list of...
i want to go to a zoo.
my brain’s a mess. my life is a mess.
i can’t even enjoy this perfect, fluffy, christmastime snow because i’m so preoccupied with:
1. the fact that my windshield wipers are broken
2. the paper i’m writing and am stumped on how to structure
3. the list of deadlines tacked on my wall that have absolutely nothing to do with school but feel...
i actually found a professor that is making me want to work at a subject i have absolutely no interest in.
it only took three and a half years.
alexintransition asked: No asking, just telling, I love the way you write.
And I miss the hell out of you.
And I miss the hell out of you.